DESIRED CONSTRAINTS

For Daddy Feral by nature and reticent mind, this child was as wild as a rabbit I tasted the wine of convenience Half empty glasses smashed windows and floors A voice was the core of existence Revelry, chemistry, physics, and blood~I listened My passion was learning Like sudden combustion exploding in flame, this child signed her life with her family name

The mind clarifies radiant colors with bright illumination inside a night terror.. Yet our dreams lack distinct color and contrast We move with deliberate intent, as if gravity and physics exist inside a night terror~ Yet we have no awareness of weight or the existence of kinetic energy inside our dreams~we experience movement in a mercurial flow Yet dream and night terror share the same orgin~ Physiological creations of the brain~ Hallucinatory chemicals~ Psychedelic glandular secretions~ Eyes to the mind~ The night terror and the dream~ Physiology's hidden healing respite, horror, and quandary

The spectre's estrangement exuded contempt Resentment exceeded all reason Abandonment seeded deterioration-- In shunned isolation where portraits are hung Blood stains the entrance way And so I remain I dust off the portraits pretending to smile The spectre's estrangement  cannot harm the child

Reticent vagabond sifts through the bin-- No scent is offensive when hunger sets in......... Children of lucifer-- Scourges of sin-- Consequence threatens existence Providence-- Ignorance lives in the land of pretend-- If you visit there once, you will visit again

Beelzebub offers one porcelain hand The other examines my torso Slowly I waken- Satan remains Dependant existence- I choke on the taste My nakedness shames me- Lucidity fades The seed of a demon was planted today- Conceived of Beelzebub-, Succubus rape

I am of granite- Chiseled grey stone I cannot show my emotions Devotion no longer has rhythm or rhyme I am impervious- Enigmatic mind